Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Everything is cold...

I just found out that my ex-boyfriend that I had senior year MIGHT have committed suicide.

Sam was a wonderful guy. Full of life and spirit. He was a skater and had an amazing girlfriend, Rachael. He was nice to everyone and didn't have any enemies. He was always happy and brought a smile to your face.

He was found, by his her closet. The autopsy shows that he was hung POST-mortum.....AFTER he was dead.
No one knows anything else about it though.

Therefore, he HAD to have been murdered, since you can't hang yourself AFTER you're dead.

I'm so screwed up right now...
I've been crying and shaking and just overall, cold.

I don't understand any of this.
It just doesn't make any sense.

It doesn't help that I haven't seen him in ages and his funeral will be in Missouri, 7 hours away, so I WON'T see him ever again.
The only other people that I've known to die were my grandparents [mom's side]. This is just....on a whole different level.


masonspaige said...

Life is so precious, more precious than we realize. And when it's gone, our hearts and minds can't understand how to just let go.
We're not created to understand death, so greaving is how we move on with our lives. It doesn't mean we ever forget or understand, but allows us to take a step forward.
Wish I could give ya a big hug...
~Cindy Shipman

Megan Rublaitus said...

Thank you. Your words are like one great big hug. :)

I am very blessed to have known him and I hope that he's in a much better place. I hope that if it was a homicide, his killer will be caught and justice served.

Love you, Cindy!